21: I Swore I'd Never Fall Again

His eyes blinked numerous times before he opened his mouth. “What do you mean you can’t do this?”

“I . . . I don’t know Mike. I don’t know what I want anymore. I am so confused, and I’m getting so old. And what we have is great, it is, but it’s not forever. What we have isn’t forever. I’m trying to figure out if I want forever or not, and if you factor into that. I just don’t know. I don’t know,” I rambled as I grabbed my coat and pulled it on to cover my exposed body. I needed something to separate Mike and I, and if that was as simple as a coat, it would have to do. This was a mistake. Coming here was a mistake. I should have just gone somewhere, anywhere. Just not here.

“It’s okay to question what you want in your life, you just caught me off guard.”

“I’m sorry Mike.”

“Don’t apologize. Look we’re leaving on a road trip tomorrow for a few days. Why don’t you go relax, maybe go to the spa or something. Clear your head. I think I like you better when you’re worry free.”

Road trip! No Mike, no Brooks! This could be time for me to detox my brain and figure my shit out. It didn’t matter what I do though, someone will end up heartbroken. More than likely, me. I wanted to scream, that was all I wanted to do.

I sped home a little faster than I probably should have, slipping around corners, and nearly taking out a mailbox. When I finally got home in one piece, I ignored Brooks who was sitting on the couch and headed straight for my room to put real clothes on. Once I didn't feel like such a slut, I headed back downstairs and made my way straight for the door, but Brooks was standing there blocking me.

"What are you doing?" I asked with an edge of irritation in my voice.

"What the hell is going on with you Niko?"

I felt my whole face flush and my palms begin to sweat. There were times when I could swear he could read my mind. He knows, he knows I want him. "Nothing's wrong, I need to go Christmas shopping."

"Why can't you do that tomorrow? We leave for five days in the morning. Hang out with me today."

"Why don't you hang out with Ashley?"

"Is that what this is about? Is that what's wrong with you? You're allowed to date, but I can only just sit here and be miserable?"

My eyes wandered to everywhere but on him. Why was he doing this? Why was he making things so much more difficult for me? "I'm not keeping you from dating Brooks! You're free to do what you want! Why do I have to give you permission?"

"Because I am sick and tired of waiting! Whatever, just go, I'll see you in a week!" He brushed past me and headed up the stairs. I stood there for awhile, starring at the front door.

Waiting? Waiting for what?! At that moment when he brushed passed me, it felt like everything was falling apart. It felt like my mind was twisting into knots, and I just didn't have the energy to untie them. I didn't even have the energy to think about what I was doing. Was I being a bitch and just not realizing it? Was Brooks being a complete jackass but in my post-sex hazy state, did I not notice?

I heard my phone ring in my purse tucked under my arm and I snapped out of my daze to pull it out. "Hello?"

"Holy crap, she answered her phone."

Why, why, WHY?! I didn't know if I should acknowledge Steve or just hang up. Maybe if I just stayed silent he would think he lost connection. "I can hear you breathing Veronica."

Fuck. "What do you want Steve?"

"I'm getting married."

My emotions were already running high, and I felt my blood boil as he spewed the words out at me. "You called me to tell me something I already know? That's fucked up Steve."

"No, listen. We're getting married in February. I want you there."

I shook my head and dropped my purse on the ground, taking a few steps toward the stairs and sat down. I ended the call with Steve and began to cry. I was back to where I was just a few months ago, confused and pissed at myself for putting myself in this position. I gave up on my original plan of leaving the house and jumped up from the couch and headed for the kitchen. I could hear Brooks playing his guitar somewhere deep in the house and I looked out the window to see Dolly waving to me. I waved back to be polite and then pulled down my sleeping pills. With shaking hands I took one out and down it with a glass of tap water.

I forgot how quickly my pills kicked in, as I felt my body begin to drag toward the ground in the living room. “The floor looks comfy,” I giggle to myself as I snatch a pillow off the couch and pass out on the ground.



When I woke up, I felt drunk. The lovely after effects of my sleeping aids. I rolled onto my back and wiped my mouth clean of my slobber. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Brooks sitting on the couch, holding his head in his hands. He brought his head up and looked at me, pure anger pumping through his body. What the hell happened now?

“Don’t you ever fucking do that to me again Veronica! I walk in here and I thought you were dead! After panicking for a good thirty minutes, I thought 'wait, who falls dead with their head on a pillow? Who lucks out like that? Oh maybe Veronica does!' I ran into the kitchen to grab the phone to call 911 and I found your pills! You couldn’t have told me you were going down for a nap? What the hell is wrong with you?”

I hear his words loud and clear, but it takes some time to actually process what he’s saying. By the time his last sentence floats from my ears to my brain I start crying. Sobbing. “Is it so wrong . . . that I just . . . want to . . . disappear?” I scream at him between deep, staggered breaths.

“What do you mean disappear?”

“I need to get away. I can’t be around Mike. I can’t be around you. Sometimes, I don’t even want to be around myself. I can’t do it. I’m done Brooks. I need a mental vacation.”

I could sense his whole body relaxing as his head drops again. I sit up slowly, and lean my back against the couch. He stands up and walks in front of me and sits down, taking my hand in his. “Will you please tell me what is going on? We’ve been best friends for nearly a decade, and I have never seen you like this. Niko, I don’t want you to disappear, I want you here, I need you here.”

“Why are you making it sound like I want to commit suicide?” I ask after calming my breathing enough to string together a complete sentence.

“Because that’s what you sound like! I walk in here to find you passed out from a sleeping pill and now you’re telling me you want to disappear, that you don’t want to be around the people that care the most about you? How would you feel if I did that?”

I shake my head back and forth, still trying to gain full consciousness. “Stop, just stop.”

“No Veronica, you need to tell me what’s going on. I can’t leave in the morning for five days with you like this! Unless you want me to have Dolly stay with you, you better start talking.”

“What if I was in love with someone other than Mike? And I feel like I’m screwing myself over because of it?” I finally spat out, surprising myself. In love? Since when did I go from wanting to have sex with Brooks to being in love with him?

“Then you need to end things with Mike. And you wouldn’t be screwing yourself over; you’d be screwing him over! He’s crazy about you Niko! He talks to me all the time about making this thing of yours with him serious, he just doesn’t know how. So if he isn’t what you want, you better let him down now, instead of continuing to drag him along like you are!”

Oh fuck, I’m in love with Brooks. I slowly withdraw my hand from his and stare at the carpet. No words were forming in my brain, just fear. Pure, raw fear. When I didn’t say anything he took this as a sign to continue.

“Mike is an amazing guy Niko. This other guy . . . this other guy you claim to be in love with? I just can’t picture anyone more perfect for you than Mike.”

“What if that guy was you? What if you’re the guy I’m in love with Brooks? Ever think about that?” I shout at him, attempting to stand up to distance myself from him. I stumbled upon standing on my feet, but manage to take a few steps away from him.

“Don’t you dare fucking say that! This isn’t something to joke around about Veronica.” He voice is low, and shaky. I’m convinced he hates me.

“Being miserable in Seattle was so much better than being miserable here with you,” I say firmly to him just above a whisper, watching as he stands from the ground to face me.

“You don’t mean that.”

“Yeah I do. Because in Seattle, I didn’t have anything. I accepted the fact that after Steve, I’m damaged goods, and I’m okay with the fact that I’ll spend the rest of my life alone.”

“Steve has nothing to do with us.”

“Because of him, I never want to love again, but I’m falling in love Brooks, and I don’t want to!” I lower my voice and look down at my feet. “I’m confusing myself. I don’t know what I want. Why do people have to want things? Why can’t we be content with nothing?” I feel myself begin to cry again and his arms wrap around me.

“I think you’re confusing me too sleepy head,” he laughs gently, lifting the mood immensely. “Promise me something okay?” I nod my head against his chest. “While I’m gone, you’ll turn off this brain of yours and let it recharge?”

“I think I can do that,” I mumble and pull away from him to collapse on the couch. He walks up to the entertainment center and plugs my iPod into the home port. He presses play then grabs his guitar out of the corner of the room. He sits down next to me and plays along with the music playing in the background.

“Can we sit here tonight, just be together, and relax?” He asks, hesitation in his voice.

“Yeah, I think I’d like that. I’m still a little too drugged up to do anything else.”

I leaned my head back, and allow his quiet strums and the music to take over my body. I was a big emotional wreck. I felt like a ping pong ball bouncing every which way. My mind was having an internally argument about what to think about. I didn’t want to think about anything at all. I didn’t want to think about hurting Mike. I didn’t want to think about falling in love with Brooks. I didn’t want to think about Steve and his wedding invite. I just wanted to sit and allow the music to consume me.

Classical music. If there is anything that can completely clear my mind, it’s classical music. I get up from the couch and head for the iPod. "Don't change it, I like this song." Brooks snapped at me and I withdrew my hand, walking away from the entertainment center. "Dance with me."

"What?" I laughed as he got up from the couch and approached me, wrapping one arm around my lower back and taking my free hand in his. "Just listen."

Remember those walls I built? Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight, they didn’t even make a sound
I found a way to let you in, but I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo, I got my angel now
It’s like when I’ve been awakened, every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m taking, I ain’t never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I’m looking now I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo, you know you’re my saving grace
You’re everything I need and more, it’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo, pray it won’t fade away

As the words filled in around us, it took me a moment to realize I was crying. Brooks was my saving grace. Always has been and he always will be. We spun in slow small circles around the living room, and finally, my mind was clear. I felt like I was where I should be. Where I should always be.

Hit me like a ray of sun, burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want, think I’m addicted to your light
I swore I’d never fall again, but this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget to pull me back to the ground again

I pulled my face away from his shoulder and looked up to see him starring down at me. “Veronica.” He said my name just above a whisper, his eyebrows pinched together in a painful expression. I gasped upon seeing the emotions in his eyes, they were a dark blue, a shade I had never seen before. I became lost in them. His eyes were sucking my soul right out of me. I could feel my body melt as he released my hand and placed his on the side of my face. My eyes involuntarily closed. The mixture of the loopiness and Brooks’ warm hand on my face was enough to send me into a coma. I felt his warm breath on my nose, and I forced my eyes to open just as I felt his hot, wet mouth attach itself to mine. I felt every organ in my body contract, all of the knots in my brain unravel, and my lungs expand with air coming in quickly through my nose. All of the bones in my legs turned to sand and I had to throw my arm around Brooks’ neck to keep me standing upright. I parted my lips the slightest bit and he pushed forward harder, moving his lips over mine in a rhythmic motion. The perfect motions to dance to the beat our hearts were currently creating. Our own song and dance. This felt so normal for me, like I had been kissing him for as long as I have known him. He spun me around quickly and took a few steps forward. I felt like a rag doll, my legs dragging in front of me. He forced my back up against the wall, and I was pinned. I wasn’t going anywhere. I didn’t want to go anywhere. I moaned against his lips as his fingers trailed down to the side of my neck, pulling my chin more up toward him. The song changed in the background, and slowly one by one, my other senses returned to me.

Lately I’ve been thinking, maybe you’re not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for, cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow, I’ll say the same thing
I am ready for love

I pulled away from him quickly, hitting my head on the wall. I looked into his eyes, they were hungry for so much more. This wasn’t happening. This can’t be happening. I gently pushed him off of me and stumbled my way up the stairs and into my room. I quickly locked the door behind me and collapsed on my bed.

There was a light knock on my door followed by him calling out my name. I didn't want to face him after that. "Niko!" But I knew I had to.

I got up from the bed and rubbed my hands underneath my eyes. I walked up to the door and rested my forehead on the wood. I rested my hand on the handle and he called out my name one more time. I unlocked my door and headed back for my bed, sitting down on the edge. The door swung open and he slowly walked in, closing the door behind him, almost as if he was refusing me any escape route I was currently contemplating. He approached me and sat down next to me, our thighs grazing each other. "Can we talk about that?"

"Brooks, I-"

"No wait, hear me out. I'm sorry; it was a mistake I know. It was wrong of me to do that with you being in the mental state you are in right now. I’m sorry Niko. I’m always one to go and complicate things. Can we just act like it never happened?”

I cursed to myself to keep my tears from falling. He thought it was a mistake? Does he not realize what he’s doing to me? So here I sat, in love with a man who wants to pretend like nothing happened. "Yeah, okay."

20: Let's Talk About Sex

A/N: So, I feel like this chapter was just thrown together, and it was. It wasn't easy for me to write at all. I actually didn't even want to write it, but I had to, for the story's sake. =D So bare with me.

My eyes danced over his bare back as I watched Mike pull boxers on after he climbed out of bed. “Are you making breakfast this morning?” I asked with a smile, holding the white sheets around my body, sitting up in bed. He began to laugh and looked over his shoulder after pulling on jeans.

“You know I don’t cook.”

“Maybe you should learn some things.”

“Well I know a few things, but I don’t need to learn how to cook a full blown breakfast, that’s what cereal is for.”

I groaned inwardly, I’d been trying to get him to cook me breakfast for two months, he just couldn’t take a hint. He was clueless to most hints I dropped by him anyways. He’s so blind. I climbed out of bed and went straight for the bathroom where I got ready for my day.

After getting ready, I headed out to his kitchen where he was sitting at the counter eating cereal. “Leaving already?” He asked grabbing hold of my hand and pulling me into a hug.

“I am, I have a lot of stuff to do today,” I smiled at him before pecking him on the lips. I winked at him before collecting my things and walking out the door. I climb into my new car parked on the street and whisper sweet nothings to her as I start her up and begin my journey through the snow covered roads.

I arrived safely back at home, and grabbed my overnight bag before trekking up to the front door. I unlocked the door and walked in, dropping my bags on the hallway bench and headed straight to the kitchen for hot chocolate and a real breakfast. I looked around and noticed dishes from the previous night were still the sink, which meant Brooks was still in bed. He was pretty good about doing the dishes on mornings I was at Mike’s house. I took a deep breath and then suddenly heard pounding above me. Brooks’ bedroom is directly above the kitchen, what the hell was he doing? I headed for the stairs, and once I climbed half way up I heard it. The moans, the creaking, the grunts and the small screams.

I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. Brooks was having sex. Sex! I stayed on the stairs and strained my ears to listen in. Her voice was crystal clear, which only meant one thing, his door was open. Dare I? I tiptoed my way up the rest of the stairs and stopped a few feet away from his door. Her name is Ashley. Brooks was kind enough to use her name while asking if she liked it “right there”. Why were my men leaving me for women named Ashley? I pinched my eyes shut and shook my head. Brooks isn’t my man and I left Steve. It’s not Ashley’s fault! I opened my eyes back up and his moans and her screams were getting louder. Is that what I would do if Brooks was nailing me? Scream my vocal chords out? I took the last few steps forward and peaked in. HOLY SHIT!

How? How does a woman twist her body like that? But most of all, how did I not know how amazing Brooks’ ass is? So firm and round. WHAT? I sneak back downstairs and grab my iPod out of my purse and shove my earphones deep into my ears before plopping down on the couch. Now I know how Brooks felt when he heard Mike and I going at it. It fucking sucks. Seeing him, and hearing them, I need to change my underwear, but I don’t want to go back upstairs. I close my eyes and wait it out.

Sometime later a loud scream caused me to go flying off of the couch. I turned around to see Ashley in one of Brooks’ shirts, with Brooks right behind her. “What are you doing home so early?” Brooks asked quickly, his eyes ready to bulge out of his head.

“I got annoyed with Mike, kinda, over breakfast, decided to come home. Who’s your friend?” I asked with the biggest fake smile I could muster.

“Um, Niko, this is Ashley. Ash this is Veronica.” He has a nickname for her. I almost want to throw up. For a millisecond I feel like I’m being replaced. I’m . . . jealous.

“Hi, it’s nice to meet you,” I say to her, fake smile still on my face.

“It’s nice to meet you too,” she mumbles trying to cover her face that is quickly turning a bright shade of red. She pointed to the stairs and mumbled a few words I didn’t catch before running upstairs. I dragged my eyes away from the stairs and glared at Brooks.

“When were you going to tell me you got a girlfriend? I’ve been freaking out because you just disappeared on me Tuesday! Don’t you think it would have been easier if you would have just told me?”

He scratched the back of his neck and I knew he was trying to come up with the right words. The right words to not piss me off royally. “She’s not my girlfriend.”

“Oh!” He had what I was having, I guess. Great sex, and just casual get-togethers, or as some people would call “dates”.

“I met her last night at a bar,” he shouted out and I looked at him in complete shock. That was so unlike Brooks. He was never the type to just bring a girl home.

“Wow. That’s um . . . amazing that, uh . . . you remember her name. Good conversation?”

“Oh shut up, you should be happy I’m getting some, I’ve been really uptight lately.” Uptight? Was he really uptight? I hadn’t noticed. His sex life was none of my business, but I didn’t know he was so deprived of sex that he was what he considered ‘uptight’. “So I take it you heard us, considering the iPod?” He asked as a slight blush crossed his face.

“Oh, I more than heard. I didn’t know what was going on, so I went up stairs and might have accidentally looked in your room to see what all the racquet was about.” Okay, so it was a small white lie. I couldn’t actually tell him curiosity got the best of me and wanted to see what he looked like while, well, you know. “It’s not entirely my fault though, you left your door WIDE OPEN!”

“So I take it you know what my ass looks like now?”

“Yeah, nothing too exciting.” Lie.

“I’m surprised we didn’t walk in on you masturbating or something. I mean I was putting on quiet the show. How long did you watch?”

“Not long honestly, just a small peak. Looked pretty boring actually. And for your information I’m as dry as the desert right now, sorry hun, watching you have sex just doesn’t get me off.” Complete lie.

“It doesn’t because you don’t know how amazing it is.”

“And I never will.” Hopefully a lie.

He rolled his eyes and headed back upstairs. I let out the breath I was holding and looked around the living room. I heard my phone beep and got up from the couch and pulled it out of my purse. A new email . . . from Steve. This morning couldn’t get any fucking better.

You can’t avoid me forever.

“Yes I can,” I groaned as I deleted his email and headed into the kitchen. Ever since he showed up randomly at our doorstep in September I’ve successfully avoided him. I had no idea why he was even trying to talk to me. It was frustrating.

I scrolled through my contacts and landed on my sister’s name. It was pretty early on the west coast, but I knew she was an early bird, and I just needed to talk to someone. Anyone.

“Hey V!” My sister answered brightly after a few rings.

“Hey Jenn, how are you?”

“I’m good, you sound like you’re about to have an anxiety attack, your voice is shaking. What’s wrong?”

I looked around the house before stepping into my boots and taking my conversation outside. Once I felt like I was far enough away from the house and still out of earshot of the neighbors I took a deep breath. “I want to have sex with Brooks. Like bad. My legs are trembling, my breathing is erratic. I just, help me get these thoughts out of my head!”

“Aren’t you sleeping with his teammate?”

“Mike. Yeah we’re somewhat seeing each other. It’s nothing serious. Dinner, movies, sex. Come on Jenn! Help me! I can’t have these thoughts in my head about my best friend, it’s just wrong!”

“Just sleep with him! Best friends do it all the time!”

I sighed heavily, watching my breath float around me in the cold. “No, you don’t understand. We’ve never even kissed before. We don’t go past hugs and kisses on the cheek. That’s just how we are. No complications, we like it like that.”

“Oh! I could have sworn you guys have made out before.”

“Nope. Never.”

“Well then, start thinking about all of his bad habits. The things that would for sure turn a girl off. Marty does crap all the time that makes me question my health concerns when I sleep with him.” I sat there and thought about what Brooks does that could be a turn off.

“Um, coming up with blanks here.”

“So are you completely turned on right now?”

“Yeah,” I mumbled, embarrassed.

“Then go have sex with Mike! Get your mind off of Brooks and on to him!”

“Why am I thinking about Brooks this way though?”

“I don’t know. Maybe your biological clock is reminding you to find a baby daddy soon, and we all know how amazing Brooks is going to be as a father.”

“Okay enough! That’s not helping!”

“Hey, you called me.”

“I know, sorry. I’m just really confused. Red flags are going up everywhere, I don’t even know if I can go back in the house.”

“Then go to Mike’s!” She laughed and I nodded my head. That idea was throwing red flags up too. It wasn’t even 10 AM yet and all I wanted to do was crawl into bed and sleep the day away.


Thirty minutes later I found myself knocking on Mike’s door in nothing but a trench coat and stilettos. Which was a stupid idea considering the weather; luckily I didn’t come across any people because they would know for sure what I was up to.

Mike swung the door open and a smile played over his face as he stepped aside and allowed me to walk in. “Are you alone?” I asked running my fingers over his jaw.

“Yup, just me. What are you wearing under there?” He asked with a smirk as he trailed his fingers along the bottom of my coat. I felt like such a slut. Like I was making up to Mike for thinking about dirty, raunchy sex with Brooks. I untied the belt, and pulled the coat open to show him what I was wearing, or in this case what I wasn’t wearing. “Is it my birthday or something?” he laughed running his cold hands up my stomach and cupping my breasts.

“I couldn’t stop thinking about you since I left, and I’ve been like this ever since,” I smiled grabbing his hand and placing it between my legs. Two of his fingers immediately bolted up inside of me easily due to my wetness.

“Maybe you should leave and come back more often,” he grinned as he continued his finger assault on me. He pulled his fingers out and rolled my clit around all while kissing along my neck line. The quicker his fingers got the closer I got to an orgasm. When I couldn’t handle it any longer, I pushed his hand away from me. “I need you in me Mike. I need you to fuck me.”

It didn’t take much time for him at all to follow my orders. He ran to his bedroom, grabbed a condom and then shoved me up against the wall. Rough, passionate sex. Screams leaving my lips telling him to go faster and to go harder. My mind was completely gone as I dug my finger nails into his back, feeling my whole body tense before an explosion that would send me to tears.

I couldn’t keep myself up on my own two legs, I had to lean into the wall for support. “Why are you crying?” He breathed out, placing a few fingers under my chin, bringing my eyes up to his. I tried to hide the disappointment when I realized he wasn’t who I thought he was. Mike didn’t deserve this. He didn’t deserve any of this. I completely fucked up.

“I’m sorry Mike, I can’t do this.”

19: Snowflakes In My Eyes

Wednesday and Saturday nights quickly became my nights with Mike. It worked perfectly for us. We would talk on the phone, and I would see him at home games, but on Wednesdays and Saturdays it was just us, hanging out in front of the fireplace doing whatever we pleased. Our biweekly sleep-overs made the weeks fly by, and before I knew it I was supervising Brooks hanging up Christmas lights outside of the house.

"I can hear your teeth chattering all the way up here!" Brooks laughed from his position at the top of the ladder.

"I'm not used to weather this cold! This is fucking cold!"

"It snows in Seattle."

"Rarely! We had a freaky snowstorm last winter, but even when it does snow, it doesn't last more than a week!"

"Well baby, welcome to the east coast!"

I growled as I held the blanket tighter to my body. I probably looked like a snowman with all of the layers I had wrapped around me. "Are you almost done?" I shouted back up at him.

"Yeah, I just need to hang the last of this strand, and then we can go get a tree!"

Getting a tree, that meant spending more time out in the cold. That meant I would have to grab more blankets and more hot chocolate. But going out to get a Christmas tree with Brooks was something we hadn't done together since his last year in junior in 2002. So I sucked it up, and put on a smile, excited to go get our Christmas tree. I watched as he climbed down the ladder and headed into the garage, a moment later the lights flicked on and I smiled. Maybe this year, I'll actually enjoy Christmas. "How's it look?" He asked as he headed my way to join me in the driveway. I couldn't say anything, I just smiled at him. I was almost convinced my mouth froze in place. He stepped behind me and wrapped his arms around me as we looked up at the house. "Wow, that's really shitty," he laughed as we both noticed a long stretch of lights were out above the garage. He let me go and began his surgery on the lights, to find the loose one. When he finally found it, I smiled at the picture perfect sight in front of me. White lights trimmed our two story home, snow covered every surface around us, and Brooks, Brooks with that addictive smile wrapped me up in a hug and kissed my forehead. "Ready to go get a tree?" I nodded my head smiling up at him.

After he locked up the house we climbed into his truck we set out on our Christmas tree adventure. “So I have to tell you, this is the first tree I’ve ever had in DC,” Brooks confessed as he navigated his way through the slick streets.

“Really? How come?”

“Well, what was the point of having a tree when it was just me? Or if I was back home? Now I get to have Christmas with my bestie! And we’re getting a tree!”

“Never call me your ‘bestie’ again. I can’t believe you just said that, you sound like a sixteen-year-old girl,” I laughed as I looked over at him and the corner of his mouth curled up.

“Can you believe we met when we were seventeen? Damn near ten years ago.”

“Oh, don’t remind me. I don’t need to know how old I’m getting.”

“We’re aging pretty well don’t you think?”

“Well you are, that’s for damn sure. Me? I don’t know.”

“Oh please, you’re just as beautiful today as you were when I met you, maybe even more.”

I felt myself blush, and wasn’t exactly sure how to take his compliment. “Probably cause I don’t have big ass bangs anymore,” I laughed nervously looking out the side window to see it start snowing again.



I was frolicking through the snow. Yes, frolicking. I felt like the little kid that never got to experience picking out a Christmas tree in the snow before. I was the little kid that’s never had this experience before. I smiled brightly at Brooks as he walked behind me, carrying an ax in hand. “Will you stop dancing and just pick out a tree?” He laughed shaking his head at me.

“You don’t understand Brooks; I’ve never done this before. We’ve always gotten our trees in the Home Depot parking lot.” This caused him to laugh as he grabbed my hand and pulled me into a hug, careful of the ax that was still in his hand.

“Well then, any tree you want. Come on its cold out, let’s pick one out and go home.” I smiled up at him and pulled away from his arms and continued to skip through the tree farm. I turned a corner and stopped upon seeing a beautiful, snow covered tree in front of us. It stood at least nine feet tall and I could already picture it in our living room. “That one?” He asked, his mouth severely close to my ear.

“It’s beautiful.”

“Alright, hold the top for me,” he smiled as he knelt down next to me and began to cut away at the stump. I couldn’t hold back my laughter as all of the snow was falling off, and sliding down the back of his jeans. He squealed a few times, but a minute or two later I felt the tree fall away from me, and I held on as he stood up and grabbed onto the back of his jeans and tried to get the snow out.

“Okay, let’s go, I need to change my pants.” He dragged the tree behind him back up to the farm where we loaded it into the back of his truck. On the drive home, I couldn’t help but look out the back window. A real Christmas tree.



I cleared out a corner of the living room as Brooks prepared the tree in the garage. I couldn’t wipe the smile off of my face; I was actually enjoying decorating for the holidays. Something I have hated for as long as I could remember, probably because holidays meant the whole family would be together. But now, with it just being Brooks and I, I was enjoying everything we were doing.

Once the tree was in place, I pulled out the dozen or so bags of ornaments we had purchased earlier in the week. Brooks pulled out the lights, and we got to work.

“We don’t have a topper?” I asked after the last ornament was placed on the tree.

“Yeah, actually I do. It’s really old so we have to be careful with it,” he smiled as he bent over a box and pulled out a gold star. This wasn’t any gold star though, this was one the little girl I used to babysit in high school made for him.

“You still have that?” I asked shocked as he handed it to me.

“Of course. I figured I would keep it until I had a daughter of my own to make me a new one.”

I could feel my bones melt as he talked. Minus the underwear incident when I met his teammates, could Brooks be anymore fucking perfect? Excuse my language, but I was in complete awe. I could hear my uterus screaming at me that this guy is supposed to be the father of my children. He plucked the star out of my hand and climbed back on top of the step stool to attach it to the top of the tree.

He stepped back down and folded up the step stool and placed it aside before plugging in the lights. He stood next to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders as we looked at our tree. “Looks good, eh?”

“It does. This might be the first Christmas tree I’ve ever had that I didn’t want to take a baseball bat to,” I laughed as I wrapped my arm around his waist and we stood there in complete silence soaking in the moment. I looked up and smiled at him, and he looked down at me and matched my smile. Our eyes locked and stayed in position as our smiles slowly began to fade. His eyes flicked down to my lips quickly before coming back up to my eyes. He withdrew his arm from around my shoulders and stepped to stand in front of me. My arm that was around his waist slid away, and my hand rested on his hip, on instinct I placed my other hand on his other hip, almost as if I was holding him in place. I glanced at my hands, before running my eyes up his chest and to his face. He looked like he was in pain, like he had just been hip checked into the boards. I could tell he was biting down on the inside of his bottom lip, his nose was flaring and his eyebrows would twitch together before relaxing. He closed his eyes and shook his head before kissing my forehead and walked away. I stood there and looked at our tree that had come back into view for me. What the hell was wrong with him?





“Something’s bothering you,” Mike commented as we settled in on his couch together. I shrugged my shoulders and held the blanket closer to us. “No Veronica, what’s wrong?”

“I don’t know, just yesterday Brooks and I decorated for Christmas, then we went and got a tree, and then he just disappeared. I haven’t seen him at all today either. Do you know if something is going on? Has he said anything at practice?” I turned my head to look in Mike’s eyes.

“No, hasn’t said anything. Maybe it’s just the stress of the holidays.”

“He doesn’t stress over holidays,” I laughed as I felt his arms around my waist tighten.

“I don’t know. Maybe it’s the stress of the hockey season, we aren’t exactly spectacular this year.”

I bit my bottom lip and thought about it. It was true; the team wasn’t what they were hoping they would be this year. Sure they were winning games, but not nearly as many as they were hoping too. Brooks though, on a personal level, was having a MVP season. The kid is psychotic on the ice, he’s doing everything he can. Would he just disappear because of hockey though? He hasn’t in the past. “I don’t know. This is new. I’ve never seen this Brooks before.”

“Well whatever it is, I’m sure he’ll get over it soon. Maybe he found himself a girlfriend.”

Girlfriend? No, no there’s way. He would tell me. He would tell me, right? “Has he said anything? Like in the locker room.”

“Even if he has, you know I can’t tell you that. What’s said in the locker room, sta-“

“Stays in the locker room, yeah I know. Damn hockey fools.” I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket and I pulled it out to see it was a text message from Jodi, Brooks’ sister. My heart instantly fell. We rarely talked, usually only at family functions. Now with Brooks acting odd and having her text me, I could only think the absolute worst. But bad news wouldn’t come over a text message. I finally opened the message and read it.

I think it’s time to get your eyes checked.

“What?!”

“Hmm? Who is it?”

“Jodi. She told me it’s time to get my eyes checked.”

“Well you’re birthday is only a month away. You, my dear, aren’t getting any younger.”

“Har-har, very funny Mike. She’s older than me though! Who does she think she is throwing old jokes at me?” I laughed as I silenced my phone and tossed it on the ground to fully enjoy my Wednesday night with Mike. He was the only one that didn’t remind me of how old I was getting, and for that I was truly grateful.

18: Transition Into The Present

“Mike! MIKE! Stop!” I ran out of the room following him. It was probably best for him to walk out anyways, because if I wasn’t chasing after him I’d be beating the shit out of his teammate, Eric. I ran outside, only a few yards away from Mike as he made his way to his car. “Would you stop acting like an immature little asshole and talk to me!?”

“An immature asshole? I’m the immature asshole? At least I’m not living with some chick screwing her while I’m dating you! And you call me the asshole? Where the hell do you get off?”

“I’m not screwing Brooks! I don’t want to screw Brooks! For fuck sakes Mike I haven’t even kissed him before! Why the fuck would I want to sleep with him?”

“It’s going to happen, you say you don’t want to, but it will. Unless you’re trying to cover up your lies and you already have. Fuck Veronica, I just can’t be with you with this impression in my head that you guys are supposed to be together.”

“Okay first off Mike, Brooks and I aren’t together, never will be. Second off, we’re not even together. No labels, remember? I’m not ready to fall into another relationship. I’m not ready to fall in love again. I don’t think I ever want to fall in love again.”

“Well then why the fuck are you dragging me along?!” I walked around a black Mercedes that was separating up and stood right in front of him, pressing my finger into his chest.

“You knew from the get-go that what we have isn’t, and wasn’t going to be, serious. You know what I’ve been through, you were there. Did you honestly think I would be ready so soon to start a relationship?”

“Yes I did! Because honestly Veronica, I didn’t think you were that stupid to still dwell over that asshole! I like you, and with every day that we were apart all I could think about was you! The more time I spent away from you the more I missed you and the more I imagined how you might just be the girl that I fall in love with. Fucking hell!” At this point his hand was on his forehead as he began to pace in the short distance between the two cars we were standing in between. “I went to bed early every fucking night just hoping that I would dream of you. I had dreams of introducing you to my family; I had dreams of your body, of your smile, your hair. I even had dreams about you moving in with me! So I need to know, I need to know right now, if I just need to walk away, or if you are going to be in this like I want you to be.”

I was taken aback by his words so much that after I hadn’t said anything for a few moments he stopped pacing and looked at me. “You had dreams about me?”

“Yes, why can’t you see what an amazing girl you are? I honestly think that everyone has a counterpart. Two puzzle pieces that just mold together, flaws and all. I have a lot of flaws, and you have a lot of flaws, but you know what? We even each other out. I know I’m young, but I’ve never felt so strongly toward someone before as I have with you, and it’s fucking killing me that you’re still stuck in the past. Because of one shithead that was lucky enough to have you, he had to go and fuck it up for the rest of us?”

I let out an involuntary sob and held my face in my hands as I cried. Steve really did do a number on me, and I truly didn’t know how to get over it. I felt two arms wrap around me as Mike whispered in my ear that he was sorry. I pulled away from his shoulder and wiped my eyes.

“You shouldn’t be sorry; I’m the one that’s sorry. I’m sorry for everything Mike. For being so difficult, and being so blind. I just, I’m scared. You have to understand that he was my everything for four years, and he is all I know when it comes to relationships. I don’t know any other way.”

“What about Brooks?”

“What about him? He’s been my best friend since the turn of the Stone Age and he’ll be my best friend until I go to my grave. So when you get me, you get him too, and trust me, there’s nothing between us.”

“So what do you say?”

“I say let’s give us a shot.” He brought his hand up and wiped away my remaining tears before kissing me gently on the lips. Was I ready for this? I guess the only way to find out was to just jump in feet first.

“So, let’s take this slow then, eh? We’ll go to dinner, on say Wednesday night?”

“Sounds good to me,” I smiled up at him and he nodded his head, grabbing hold of my hand and dragged me back into the house.

When we walked into the house, the whole living room went silent and I noticed Brooks was missing. I released Mike’s hand and headed into the kitchen where I found him leaning up against the counter, his arms folded over his chest and his head hanging low. “Hey,” I whispered as I walked in further and leaned against the island directly across from him.

“Hey,” he grumbled lifting his head up to look at me.

“So I bet this isn’t exactly the way you wanted me to meet your teammates, but you’re at fault for that.”

“I know, I’m sorry. I should have told you Eric was down here, but I just wanted to get you back for that one time I walked in on a bunch of girls in just my tighty whities. You’re lucky I gave you my shirt.”

“Wow Brooks, that was like seven years ago!” I laughed and a slight smile spread on his face. As fast as it appeared though, it was gone. “Something’s bothering you, what’s wrong?”

“I’m just not feeling that great, sorry. But hey, the pizza was a hit, I saved you some.” He twisted his upper body and grabbed a plate off the counter and handed it to me.

“Thanks,” I smiled as I picked up a piece and took a bite. For some reason, whenever I cook the food looks amazing, but it just doesn’t taste that great. I placed the slice back down on the plate and set it on the counter behind me.

“So everything okay between you and Mike? It sounded pretty nasty.”

“You heard all of that?”

“Just the immature asshole thing,” he mumbled dropping his head one more time.

“Yeah, I was kind of harsh. We’re okay now though. I think, well I hope. We have a date on Wednesday.”

“Oh great, do I need to give him the ‘talk’ then?”

I shook my head and rolled my eyes before walking out of the kitchen and rejoining the guys in the living room. Eric gave me an apologetic smile, and I nodded in return. It was good enough for me; I knew I wouldn’t receive a verbal apology from him in front of his teammates. I’ve been around hockey players too long to know they just don’t do that.





I don’t understand. I’ve slept with him. I’ve done things with him I could have never imagined before. Why the hell was I so nervous about going out to dinner with him? Why did I feel like an eighteen-year-old girl again? Most of all, why did I feel like a virgin that was about to give up my apple? I inspected my body for a third time, just to make sure there was nothing embarrassing that could possibly ruin the mood. I have to stop reading Cosmo.

There was a light knock on my door and I swung it open quickly, but turned back to my closet. “What’s wrong with you?” Brooks asked laughing. I looked over my shoulder to see him leaning against the door frame, his eyes lurking down around my ass. I quickly snatched a pair of jeans and pulled them on over my underwear.

“Would you believe me if I told you I was nervous?”

“Nervous?! Seriously? Why?”

“I don’t know! It’s an actual date, Mike and I haven’t had a real date yet. We just kind of jumped into bed right away.”

“I don’t need to know that.”

“I wasn’t sharing any spicy details, chill out. I don’t know why I’m nervous. When was the last time I went out on a date?” I turned back to my closet and grabbed a black tank top, tossing that on over my head.

“Um, 2004.”

“Exactly! That’s why I’m nervous!” I pulled out a white cardigan with black trim and tossed that on over my tank top. I pulled on some black riding boots, and figured that was good enough for a first date with a guy I’ve already been sleeping with.

“You look cute.”

“Thanks Brooks, you look cute yourself, I like the sheep on your PJ bottoms.”

“Oh shut up.” I laughed as he as I squeezed my way past him and into the bathroom. I checked my hair over to make sure I didn’t have any kinks and heard the doorbell ring downstairs. “Since when does Mike ring the door bell?” Brooks asked laughing as he headed down the stairs. I was quick on his heels, not wanting to miss out on Mike making fun of Brooks’ pajama pants. They really were kind of terrible. Brooks swung the door open and I froze in place on the last step of the stairs. I turned on my heel and began to trek back up the stairs. “Veronica!” I registered the voice in my head as Mike’s. I slowly turned around and sure enough, there were all three of them standing at the bottom of the stairs.

“Steve, what are you doing here?” I asked slowly, not moving from my spot.

“Well, I’m here on vacation, with Ashley. Look, can I talk to you?”

“I was actually just on my way out, Mike and I have reservations. Maybe another time,” I stated firmly as I headed back down the stairs and grabbed onto Mike’s hand dragging him out the front door with me. He squeezed my hand firmly as he held the passenger door open for me. By the time we were on the main road, my eyes finally registered and focused on my hands in my lap. Did that just happen? Was that really Steve I just saw?

“You okay babe?”

“Don’t call me babe.”

“I’m sorry, what?”

“I’m sorry Mike. It’s just he called me babe. It’s a long story, I just don’t like it.”

“Okay, I won’t call you that anymore. Now are you okay?”

“I think so, well I hope so. That all just happened so fast. Was he really there? My mind isn’t playing tricks on me is it?”

“No, he was there, and trust me, I wasn’t very happy to see him either.”

I shook my head and pulled my cell phone out of my purse, quickly sending a message to Brooks asking him if he knew Steve was in town.

Scouts honor I did not.

I took a deep breath through my nose and released it through my mouth before looking over at Mike. “You sure you’re okay? We don’t have to go out.”

“Do you think maybe we can just pick something up and take it back to your place? I’m sorry, it’s just, I don’t know how to react right now.”

“That’s perfectly fine. Just let me take him off your mind for you, okay?”

“I would love that.”

He stopped at his favorite Chinese restaurant and ordered pretty much the whole menu before we made our way back to his apartment. Upon arriving at his pad, I went straight for the kitchen and laid out all of the take out containers. I grabbed two plates and began dishing up food for each of us, while he was doing something in the living room. I carried the plates to the other room just as he flipped the switch for the fireplace. The coffee table was shoved up against the couch, and in front of the fireplace were a blanket and a ton of pillows. I smiled brightly at him as he took the plates from me and set them down on the coffee table.

After we were done eating, Mike piled up a bunch of pillows on the wall behind him and lean up against them, holding his arms out for me to crawl between his legs. I sat down between his thighs, and pressed my back against his chest. “Are you ready to talk?”

“About what?” I asked confused. I figured we had cleared everything up a few days prior in the driveway screaming at each other.

“About Steve, and what happened between you guys.”

“Mike, I-“

“No, I want to try and understand. I know I said I would help you forget about him, but I need to know how he got in your head, so I can try and get him out.”

I took a deep breath and rested the back on my head on his shoulder, I felt his lips graze my neck and I closed my eyes. “What do you want to know?”

“How did he propose?”

“The same way he did to Ashley, in front of his whole family.”

“Is that when things began to fall apart?”

“Yeah, once I became his possession, he treated me like one. Told me what to wear, how to do my hair, how long to keep my nails. Every little thing of my life, he controlled. He once tried telling me not to talk to Brooks. I like to call that one the fight of the century.”

“So you stuck up for yourself when it came to Brooks?”

“Of course, if it wasn’t for Brooks, Steve and I would have never met. It’s just this bond that we have, that no one understands, it’s just there. You thought it was bad having me call you an ‘immature asshole’, I called him far worse that day. But then of course, he pulled it around, and made me believe I would be nothing without Brooks. Which was true, he was all I had.”

“That can’t be true.”

“No, I’m pretty sure it was. In high school, the hockey boys were more popular than the football players, so when I became friends with Brooks, I lost all my other friends. I don’t know why, but they were very mean to me from then on. Then just life after that, sure I was dating Steve, and living with Steve, but Brooks was all I had. He was who I ran to when things got really bad with Steve. Then my family abandoned me in Seattle, I broke things off with Steve, and I was back where I started, just Brooks and me.”

“What do you mean when things got really bad with Steve?”

“He was very verbally abusive. If I didn’t curl my hair the right way I was lazy because I didn’t put forth enough effort. If my clothes weren’t in pristine condition he wouldn’t be seen out in public with me because it would embarrass him. Oh and God forbid if I had a zit, I’d be filthy and don’t care about myself, so why would I care about him?”

“You do know you’re none of those things right? And any guy would be damn proud to be seen with you in public?”

I felt myself blush and tear up at his words. I slowly nodded my head, trying to compose myself before I talked. “I know, by the time I left him I was so fed up with everything. I cut ten inches off my hair, dyed it black, went out and bought a pair of sweatpants and didn’t shower for three days. Three days! I felt like a hippie and I loved every minute of it.”

“So if you love the freedom so much, why do you still let him bother you?”

“Because every time I think I’m over him, he shows up. Every time I make a personal break through, I receive a text message, an email, or flowers. It’s frustrating. For some reason though, seeing him tonight, it didn’t affect me like it usually would have. I’m more frustrated than heartbroken. At the family reunion, watching him propose to Ashley, it felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest, it was terrible. I felt like I could have died from the pain. Yet tonight, I’m starting to think I’m finally getting over that hill that I need to get over when it comes to him.”

“I’m happy to hear that,” he whispered in my ear and I smiled as his grip around my waist tightened. As I sat, wrapped up in his arms, thousands of emotions were floating through me. Being here with Mike like this, was something I could get used to, but was it something I wanted to get used to?

17: Meeting The Team

I always wondered if it would hurt to take a frying pan to the nose. If Brooks wasn't careful, he was about to find out. "What do you mean the whole team?!"

"Well I want you to meet them, and I might have been bragging about your food. So it just kind of formed into that."

"So wait, how many guys are on your team?"

"Well not all of them are coming, maybe just twelve of us."

"Twelve!? You eat enough for a family of five, and you want me to cook for twelve of you!? You're out of your fucking mind! That's like cooking for... fuck, what's twelve times five?"

"Sixty."

"SIXTY OF YOU!! Wait, how'd you figure that out so fast?"

"Math, it was my strong point."

I groaned as I placed the frying pan back down on the stove. "I can't believe you. What am I supposed to cook for sixty people?"

"Twelve people, and I don't know. Make your pizza, that would be a big hit."

"That would be like thirty pizzas!" I spun around and rested my hands on the edge of the counter and hung my head. There were too many numbers floating around in my head, and the only one that was sticking out was the number 'sixty'.

"Calm down Niko, it won't be so bad. I'll help you."

"You'll help me cook? For sixty growing boys?"

"I can so make a dirty, unnecessary comment right now about that, but I don't think you're in the mood for crude humor."

"Get out of the kitchen."

"So you'll do it?" I turned back around and looked into his eyes, his bottom lip forced out as far as it could go.

"I'll do it. But you owe me."

"Whiskey?"

"Johnnie Walker."

"Blue Label?"

"Nothing less."

"Done." I walked up to him and pushed him on the chest to get him out of my kitchen. I had less than twenty-four hours to mentally prepare myself to cook for twelve men. Twelve hockey players. What the hell was he thinking?






The guys were set to arrive any minute, and I looked like an insane asylum escapee running around the kitchen. My hair was flipped every which way, the only down side of having short hair. I was almost positive I had a zit forming on my chin, and on top of that I was about eighty-six percent sure I had lost my mind. "Do you need any he-"

"GET OUT!" I tossed the last pizza in the oven and ran past Brooks upstairs to grab a quick shower. I stunk on top of everything too. How nice would that be? To be known as the chick that smells of feminine hygiene products and pizza sauce? Good lord, I'm getting old.

I never knew it was possible to brush your teeth and blow dry your hair at the same time, but somehow, I managed. Once my hair was manageable and my teeth squeaky clean, I ran out of the bathroom and straight into my room to get dressed. I looked in my closet confused. What was I supposed to wear? This would be the first time I would meet his NHL teammates, I had to look somewhat decent. "BROOKS!" I screamed out my door, frightening him as he was only walking down the hall a few feet away.

"What?! Woah, where are your clothes?" I watched as his face turn a few different shades of red as he looked over my new set of matching lingerie.

"That's the problem! Help me! Fuck, no wait! The pizza!" I ran out of my room and made my way to the stairs, but Brooks caught my wrist first. He pulled his T-shirt off and handed it to me. I felt myself blush as I pulled it on over my head and proceeded down the stairs.

As I bent over to pull the pizza out, I heard a low whistle from behind me. I looked over my shoulder and jumped up, dropping the pizza back on the oven tray. "You must be Veronica?"

I turned around to face him and pulled on the bottom of Brooks' shirt to cover my thighs. "And you are?"

"Eric Fehr, I play with Brooks."

"That's nice, um, can you maybe help me and just pull this pizza out and place it on that stone right over there, while I run upstairs real quick? Okay thanks, bye." I continued to tug on the shirt as I ran back up stairs and found Brooks laying out an outfit for me on the bed. I began to pound on his back with my fists.

"YOU SON OF A BITCH!!" I heard him chuckle as he turned around and grabbed my wrists, he held both of them in one hand as he reached down and grabbed the bottom of his shirt. "I'm going to need this back before I head downstairs."

I froze. He released my wrists and pulled his shirt up and over my head. I bit down on my bottom lip as I stood in front of him, now just in my underwear. I've been here before, except the last time it was in a fantasy. "You okay?" He asked before he pulled his shirt on.

"Um, yeah. Sorry, I think I've lost it. Now can you go make sure that teammate of yours that I didn't know was here took the pizza out?"

"You're lucky I gave you my shirt, I could have sent you in just your underwear." I pushed him toward the door and he continued to laugh. "I, uh, like the underwear by the way. You look good in lace."

My eyes grew wide as I watched him walk out and shut the door behind him. I looked down at my underwear, noticing for the first time that they were pretty much see-through. Right then I was convinced today was the death of me. I turned around and looked at the clothes he laid out for me. Jeans and a yellow v-neck T-shirt. Simple and easy, just the way I liked it.

By the time I made it back downstairs the living room was full of large men. Brooks walked up to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulders, handing me my payment for the day. A bottle of Johnnie Walker Blue Label Whiskey. I brought my eyes up from the bottle and they immediately fell on Mike, he was grinning at me and I could feel my day turning to the upside. I smiled back at him before Brooks whisked me away to meet his teammates.



"There's no way I'll remember everyones name I hope you know."

"I wasn't expecting you too," he laughed as we approached Alexander Ovechkin. When Ovie turned around I verbally gasped and turned beat red. "Alex, this is Veronica. Veronica this is Ovie."

"It's nice to meet you," he greeted me holding his hand out for me to shake. I took his hand in mine, trying desperately to stop starring. It was like a car wreck, I just couldn't look away.

"Ni-nice to meet you too." I was trying my damn hardest to not word vomit. Brooks could sense my sudden loss of brain cells and dragged me away.

"What was that about?" He laughed as we wandered into the kitchen.

"So I knew he was ugly, but oh. My. God. His nose has a bigger curve than a damn boomerang! Are you serious!? That, THAT, is the face of the Washington Capitals?! Oh lord, babe, I'm sorry."

Once Brooks had stopped laughing, we brought the pizza into the living room and everyone dug in. I snuggled in next to Mike on the couch, happy to finally relax and be in his arms. I leaned my face up to his and kissed him gently on the lips. Maybe today wouldn't be the death of me afterall.

"So wait a second," Eric announced pointing his finger at me. "Are you with Brooks or Mike, because it looked like you were with Brooks earlier?"

"What?" Mike snapped out with a chuckle. I felt my ears burning and starred at Eric, trying to mentally scream at him.

"Well when I got here she was in panties and Brooks' T-shirt, I just assumed. Obviously wrong."

I felt Mike stiffen next to me, and then his arm around my shoulders lift away. I looked over at him to see what he was doing, but it was too late, he was already standing up and walking away.